To be Honest

I have to look at a phone to see myself

I think

I am not totally sure of myself

But I don't think anyone ever is

I do know some of myself

And that part I like

I think anyone should too

Because I am just a me and

You are just a you

A human being

Sometimes

Wrong and sometimes true

But just a being

breathing thru and thru

I never know, so I hardly share

Cracks are rare in my facade

But when they show through

They are truly new and odd

This song started kind of slow

But with time and music its color began to show

It started with words new to me

And an explanation rather true to me

Because I am just a me and

You are just a you

A human being

sometimes

Wrong and sometimes true,

But just a being

Breathing thru and thru

I have to look at a picture of me

To stray away from the mirror image that grew into me

The body rightly given to me

Hardly felt like a god given gift to me

The counter thoughts couldn't get through it me

I find panic, and numbness can be resumed in me

Hunger led, no bread to get through to me

An uncontrollable thought stream rang oh so true to me

But this wasn't something new to me

The thought of calories at breakfast grew to be

A defining factor of the way I see

Strange to the outside and stranger to me

At the same time

a separate voice wished for a reason

To the painful rhythm

In need of a mindful guide to the outside treason

The voice said

I don't want that mirror to be

what's truly inside of me

Because I know there are people who'd fight

Tooth and nail to help me see

And I know there are people who'd rather be

Sitting tipsy in a chair boppin' Zepplin insumental beats

Life gave me clean air that's free to breath

It's safer than my neighbors across the sea

I know in my head right now there's a we

Still don't know if we is better than having only me

I guess this break in my brain

Was a unforgiving and lonely plea

Because I am just a me and

You are just a you

A human being

sometimes

Wrong and sometimes true,

But just a being

Breathing thru and thru