I've always been somewhat of a passive individual. I would forgive easily, and allow people to treat me shabbily because I wanted to be that friend that everyone liked, but that's where I made one of the biggest mistakes of my life because not everyone has a place in your life. Or some people may be in your life and unfortunately have an expiration date.
I've lost many friends, have met many other amazing individuals and maintained a few friendships, and that is a part of life. It took me a great amount of time to conceptualize how friendships just end, but I have realized that people grow up, your interests change and it is not necessarily something done by an individual in which the friendship ended, simply we just parted ways.
I have also been in friendships longer than I should have. You should never feel obligated to do things to please your friends or feel inadequate for being a friend to them. I would allow people to take my friendship for granted, I would allow people to walk all over me and dispose of me like garbage, but I had to wake up. If you love yourself you won't condone the treatment from people who do not appreciate you.
This year it is my duty and obligation to spend my second to last year of college with people who enjoy my company and want to be my friend. Someone once told me to never fixate over a broken or lost friendship. You only have 24 hours to spend the days with the people who you love, and who love you.
Having previous sucky friendships makes opening up to others and building new friendships very difficult, but when you let go of toxic friendships, doors await for new friendships. I have had this conversation with myself time and time again and I know what I deserve and I have the will power to walk away from toxic friendships without the fear of standing alone. The most alone you can feel is in a toxic friendship. We all have a purpose in life to fulfill and that purpose can only be fulfilled with who you surround yourself with!