I am in my early 20s. It is a very weird but exciting time in my life. I am almost done college and I am moving on to the next chapter of life. Which is grad school.
I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. Some days, it is frightening. Other days, it's soothing. I am 21-years-old and I am still by myself. Going at my own pace. Not rushing to meet anyone until school is finished. Not worrying about anything except for myself.
Some may call that cruel, insensitive, or conceited of me, but I don't think so. Not right now. I have a lot on my plate, and I would be stupid to let my time go to waste at this important part of my college career.
For my parents, life was different. They were engaged at my age, and they met at age 18. They were married by 25 and bought their first house during their engagement. They had me at 27, so they started their family before their 30s.
Today, that is not as common anymore. Times are different now.
Some people choose to start early, but people are also getting a late start, and that's okay.
I have the typical fear of living alone, never meeting anyone, never getting along in life. I have a fear of running out of money and never finding a job with the major I have. With the latest teacher cuts, it gets scarier and scarier.
But I realize two things: people are in the same gigantic boat as me, and there is always a way. I don't have to follow down the path of somebody else. I shouldn't have to model what others expect me to be. I am allowed to go at my own pace.
As long as I make it out alive. As long as I pay my bills. As long as I serve my purpose. Relationships will happen when they happen. I will get engaged when it is my time. I will get married when it is right. I will have my children when my body allows it.
We all have a plan, and I do not want to copy someone else's plan. I want to create my plan. Everything will work out eventually, so I shall not worry.