Growing up, I was just like everyone else; wanting so desperately to "fit in." Â Yes, part of "fitting in" meant having a boyfriend. Â All of my friends seemed to be ahead of me in this department. Â Although I continued to dream of the day that I would find a boy who exceeded all of my ridiculously high expectations (formulated thanks to romance novels), Â I was secretly losing hope that I would ever find that special kind of love. Â Granted, I did have a few relationships throughout my high school career. Â However, I discovered fairly quickly that none of them were meant to last. Â
There was a point where I went three years being on my own. Â During this time, I talked to numerous people but none of them were genuinely interested in getting to know me, but rather wanted to take something I wasn't yet ready to give. You see, I've always considered myself to be a relationship girl. Â I could not see myself being with someone in any shape or form whom I cannot picture a future with. Â Not only is this a waste of my time, but the other individual's as well. Â Because of my beliefs, I remained single. Â I continued to grow more confident in myself and to learn what I wanted most out of life. Â For me, it was a much needed journey of self-discovery. Â When I was 15 years old, I was not prepared to be in a committed relationship because in order to do so, it would've meant losing myself and becoming someone I was not. Â
God am I glad I waited because at 19 the most incredibly unexpected thing happened; I fell in love. Â I found a man who was my opposite in many ways. Â He was much more cultured when it came to relationships and how the real world operates, but he never allowed this to become a barrier between us. Â Even though we faced opposition around every corner, we knew it was nothing more than we could handle because the love we shared dominated even in the darkest times. Â
Meeting a good man who respects me and accepts me for the quirky individual I am has meant more than words can convey. Â I would wait time and time again for that one man to come around. Â I understand how difficult waiting can be, and after awhile you begin to feel defeated. Â However, it's crucial that we do not lose hope. Â It may sound cliche, but that person whom you haven't yet met but already need and love will come around at the right time. Â And when they do, you will have realized that it was well worth the wait.