The day you left was the day that I felt

The Earth shift,

Time froze.

I was in complete

Shell shock.

All my senses

Vanished.

My appetite had ceased to exist

Thankfully, temporarily

In that moment all I could think was

“I did something wrong.”

“What could I have done to make you leave?”

“It is all my fault.”

“You hate me.”

But the main question in mind was…

Why?

Why did you leave?

Why couldn’t have we worked this out?

Why did you break your promises?

Promises.

Promises that seemed attainable at the moment.

Promises that seemed so easy to keep.

With a blink of an eye,

All of those promises became

Empty.

The moment those promises became empty,

So did my heart.

Ice coursed through my veins.

Motivation was on a massive decline.

My once shining, bright eyes

Turned dull.

The only thing that shined anymore was

The trickle of a single tear from my

Left eye.

Decisions were made,

Walls were built,

We haven’t spoken sense.

Days turned into weeks that turned into months.

Sleepless nights became a routine.

A day wouldn’t be considered

Normal

If I didn’t break down at least once.

I was tired.

Tired of holding this burden

In my heart.

I needed change, and I needed it

NOW.

Pictures were deleted,

Memories had fade.

I broke old habits and routines

That ensured that I wouldn’t have to see

You.

I am not going to lie

When I say that it broke my heart to give up something that

I love,

Just to get away from you.

But I will admit,

That leaving was for the best

For me.

Since you left,

I have felt

Free,

Unbothered,

And most importantly,

Happy.

Happy with my education,

Happy with my family,

Happy with my closest friends

That I hold near and dear

To my heart.

Most of all,

I am happy with me.

I am happy with my life,

I am happy about where I am going to be

In the months to come.

I am happy about

My future.

I have discovered little things I can do for

Myself

That make my heart and soul feel full.

I am satisfied,

Content,

Relieved.

I would be lying if I said I didn’t think about

You.

What you’re up to,

How your life has been,

If you’re doing well?

You were my go to person,

My number one.

The time we spent together

Are times I will never forget.

The short-lived time frame that you were

In my life,

Have shaped me into the person

That I am becoming.

With that being said,

I want to take an opportunity and say

Thank you.

Thank you for having an impact on me.

Thank you for showing me what I deserve.

Thank you for spending time with me.

And finally,

Thank you for setting me free

And showing me what it is like

To thrive and survive,

All on my own.