As I prepare to leave to visit my boyfriend and attend the Marine Corps Ball, I have a lot of emotions coursing through my body. I'm excited, nervous, happy, and everything in between. When you go long periods of time without seeing someone who you love so deeply, it's a lot of emotions at once to handle, and sometimes you can get extremely overwhelmed.

Is he going to still find me attractive?

It may sound dumb to some people but after months apart you wonder if you've gained weight or if something has changed that might make him not want to be with you any more or lose interest in you.

Will my plane be on time?

I hate flying, I really do. So worrying about my flight adds to the nervousness of seeing him.

Should I kiss him first or wait for him to kiss me?

A critical piece of thought, who's gonna make the first move after months apart?

Should I have a stranger film me running to him when I see him?

No. No mom or Marine wants to hold your phone while you jump into his arms.

Should I wear my hair up or down? Yoga pants or jeans?

The first appearance is the most important, I need him to remember why he picked me to date.

Don't cry, don't cry, winged eyeliner, don't cry.

We ALL know I'm going to cry anyways.

Spending months apart from him is so difficult. We fight, cry, and laugh, but it's never easy, and never will be easy. We work extremely hard to keep this relationship healthy, and when we finally see each other after months apart, it's all worth it!