20 years is a long time
A long time to beat to breathe to feel to think and love
A long time to create to shape to learn and imagine
A long time to process and grow to make mistakes and learn
A long time to connect and lose
To fuck up and to cry
To break down and to be lost
To become confused and in search for something new
To be in search of what else and what if and why not
To be happy to shine to laugh and to forgive
To love hard and get hurt and then love again
To watch people leave and watch people stay
20 years is a long time.
A long time to appreciate and believe
To be thankful to give and to take
A long time to consume and idealize
A long time to educate and refuse
To trust and then leap
To fall and step back
Along time to see good and see bad
And then see some more bad and more good
A long time to memorize and cultivate- to transpire and overthink and overcome
The memory is the funny part
Where all of my 20 years reside
Sometimes a liar and sometimes tells the truth
Always confusing it's really nothing new
The loss and the light
The lessons and morally ambiguous deeds
The finite things that I will never let go
The things my heart flourishes on and the things that make it crumble
I couldn't have gotten here alone.
20 years is a long time.
I'm looking i'm hearing and touching and I can taste it
These memories that have brought me here
They paved and carried me and made me safe
The nostalgia can wander and sometimes makes new lines
But the plane is always the same always reliable always sturdy
It's a memory in itself and has guided me here
20 years really is a long time...
