Today I woke up and stayed in bed for two hours. I was honestly scared to look at my phone and see that Trump winning was my our new reality. But there it was, straight from the New York Times, Trump’s historic win and Obama congratulates him. I’m scared guys. And you don’t know what fear is unless you're a person of color, part of the LGBTQ+ community, a woman, or hell, if you’re part of any minority group, you don’t know.

I went to bed well before Trump officially won and I joked to my roommate, “I’m probably going to be sold into sex slavery, you know, because I’m Asian.” Well, this is probably the extreme but who knows. I don’t want to be disappointed but I am. I’m a social media major so I monitor the crap out of Twitter and Facebook trends. I see people hating on Trump, I see people scared. But I’m not going to say, “Y’all done fu**ed up, y’all should have voted," because what’s done is done.

I stayed in bed for so long because I didn’t know what to do. And I realized that since Ashton Kutcher isn’t popping out of his hide-y hole screaming, “YOU GOT PUNK’D” at America, I couldn’t just wallow in my fear. For the first time in my life, I felt like I really had to do something, that this was the only way change could happen with Trump as president. For the first time ever I want to risk my life and protest. I want my voice to be heard. And I really hate how it took me this long to realize that. I hate how it took the most unqualified president being elected for me to realize that my voice does matter and that I can initiate change.

I scrolled through my Facebook feed to see it filled with posts about their disappointment. How they’re scared. I hope you realize that now, we literally have nothing to lose. And I hope you know sitting behind your laptop spamming everyone’s feed with, “If you voted for Trump, I hope you die” is not going to do shit. Fella’s, this is it. I have never felt more powerful and scared and disappointed in my life. I know you guys feel it too and I just hope you do something other than be apathetic.