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Our Most Dangerous Weapon

Ryan Carey

Jun 01, 2016

Chelmsford, MA

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This isn't me

Being a maiden in distress

This is just

How my mind works sometimes

And I need to make it public

That's all

I just

Want something

I'm not quite sure what it is

More than what I have now

But at the same time

I don't want anything

I couldn't be happier with where I am

With what I have

With who I know

Just

Sometimes

I feel

How far can I get

I have some cash

A rusty car

Some gas

I can get pretty far

I guess that's what I want

To go

See stuff

Do things

Do more

But at the same time

I'm perfectly content

Staying where I am

I have a group of friends

And what a group

Let me tell you

These guys and girls

They're the best bunch

I could have hoped for

When I'm with them

I feel like myself

I feel like I can do anything

Say anything

I'm free

Same thing goes for the stage

I can be myself through another person

Through a character

It's the only other place where

I'm free

I know my friends and the stage

I know they appreciate me

I know my family does

And I know a few others who do too

It's just

When I'm alone

Me and my thoughts

I start thinking

Probably the most dangerous weapon I have

Thought that is

And when I think

I go off

Everything and everything

I have ever done

Comes down on me like a tsunami

I'm overwhelmed

That much

Stuff

Shouldn't be felt at once

I become desperate

Looking for something

That doesn't exist

I think again

How far can I get

What can I see

If I just

No chains

No longer

Regular

Dull

Boring

I guess that's it

That's what I fear

That's why my thought

Lead me to

Going

I don't want to live the same day

On repeat

For life

But at the same time

I do

It's comforting

In a strange way

It's safe

Which is good

My dad serves in the Navy

To keep life safe

So I'm grateful

And content

I just

Don't know really

I'm not going anywhere

I sometimes think is all

I want to see what I'll become

Eventually I'll shed off

The people who make things difficult

And one day

Be surrounded by people

People

Who like me

Love is a strong word

And you can love someone

But not like them

If they like me

Me for me

That would be enough

And I'll be glad to have them

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3. Eat lots of chocolate

4. Go for a walk

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Who could be a better friend than your own sister?

1. She's your number one fan…and you're her's.

2. It feels like you guys can communicate telepathically at times with just a look.

3. Fights last for about two minutes because you find something funny and have to show them.

4. Concerts in your car are a regular thing.

5. You have an innumerable amount of inside jokes that are always funny.

6. When she gets clothes it's like you're getting new clothes too.

7. She's seen you at your worst and doesn't judge you…but has taken pictures to remind you.

8. She always knows just what to say to cheer you up…or what food (or drink) to make you if words aren't working.

9. She's the first person to jump to your defense.

10. You have a permanent best friend.

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1. Google is your best friend.

2. Don't be afraid to say no!

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