P.A.S.T.

Prior Attachments Stopping Today

Everyone's thoughts and mannerisms are different, as they should be. But there is not one single comment or antiphon that is unjustifiable or incomprehensible. There is always an underlying reason for each and every action and reaction (shout out to Newtons 3rd Law). You cannot simply wake up one day and have a whole new outlook on life without something occurring before your epiphany. It does not have to be a negative factor that brings on your actions, however, this is mostly the case.

We remember all the good times and the laughs. We remember the jokes and pranks we pulled. We remember the awards we've won and the accomplishments we've made. Yet we feel the certain twangs of pain and emptiness that accompanies so much as a word, name, or even a song. For some reason or another, we focus more on the things that have wronged us more often than those that had lifted us up. It's also not in our control; or so – this is what we tend to tell ourselves.

The truth is we educe these adverse moments by still acting on them. We use these times to build up walls to surround ourselves. It's said so often in love stories and quotes, that we are to "look for the one to break down your walls". But why can't that simply be us? It's not our past relationships, hardships, break-ups, arguments, divorce, ailments, and grief that is the reason to blame. It's not as if we can take these defining moments and simply thrust them into a corner of neglect either. Instead, we take these impediments and try to learn from them all. But when we will be understand that you don't have to go digging through your past to find these answer? Sometimes, our life lessons are like a rainbow, we see the start of a problem, so we follow it to where we believe it will end; only to find that the pot of gold was never intended to visible or taken, but nonetheless we made that journey to an almost end.

Some situations are meant to leave us raw. They are meant to test us in any way possible. The biggest test, is walking away. You don't need that overbearing weight of questions. There's no need to walk on a tight rope throughout your present predicaments. You don't need to wear a harness of guilt and worry all of your life.

Here's the hard truth, you're gonna get let down by those who you admire and expect so much of, but you shouldn't reduce your standards. You're going to work your butt off and become proud of something that isn't perceived by others the same way; that doesn't mean you have to conform to another way of thinking. You're going to be lied to by the people who promise to only tell you the truth and swear by it; but that doesn't mean you should exclude others from keeping or proving their integrity. You're going to love someone more than they love you; but you should never give up on this institution, you shouldn't believe yourself to be unloveable. You're going to be criticized and judged; but don't ever listen to their hateful words. You're going to be think about those you've tried to forget; but you don't have to bring them back in your life. You're going to feel weak and vulnerable when certain difficult subjects arise; but you should climb up the ladder with it, and not fall to the ground.

If you're meant to revisit anything – or anyone from you're past, you won't have the time to question it. If your history is about to repeat itself, it will instantaneously, you won't need to ponder what could happen. We spend our blank stares and shower thoughts drifting back to a time that has passed. We waste our present with the consumption of "ifs" when we ought to be living. It's normal to be rethinking your actions and words, it is not always terrible, but thinking of the context they once belonged in and the situations as a whole can be paralyzing. If it already occurred, and was impactful enough to remind you of what happened, theres no way to alter it now, we need to move on and glide along. Just because we have been broken in the past, does not mean that we should fold.