(Trigger Warning: suicide, depression)

This is a sestina style poem that I wrote describing a rather difficult time in my life. I was really depressed and I thought that the only thing that was going to fix it was taking my life. I didn't want to be alive anymore, but at the same time, I knew I needed to hold on. This poem basically describes the back and force I had in my head of what those juxtaposing feelings were like.

I am so tired of everything

No matter what nobody will care

How unimportant it seems, life

When nobody bothers to notice you

I am done being a burden to everyone

I want and need this life to end

There will be always be someone to care

Even when it seems like you've met the end

It's hard when on your shoulders is everything

But don't be mistaken you can have a great life

You can't always have your mind be on you

Learn to care about not you, but everyone

No longer do I wish to have this life

I promise I am done with everyone

I just cannot deal with everything

Nobody cares until who hurts is you

I am ready for this life, everything, to end

Nobody cares, and nobody ever will care

You cannot let this be the end

I promise you can get through this life

Think about everyone who needs you

There's much more to see, there's everything

I promise the hate is not from everyone

If nobody else then there's me, I care

No I can't this has to end

I am over it I am over everything

Don't lie to me, you don't care

All I am is a burden to everyone

I have to end it, I have to end this life

I'm sorry but you'd understand if it was you

I do understand because I was you

I thought I was a burden to everyone

I thought that I couldn't deal with life's everything

I thought that this was a bad life

I didn't have anyone to care

I promise it get better, this doesn't have to be the end

I'm sorry

This is the end.