"A cord of three strands is not easily broken." - Ecclesiastes 4:12

One of my best and truest friends blurted out in the middle of our Starbucks-coffee-date conversation one afternoon, "you want to be a wife, don't you?" Most people would hear that and be like ..... "uh, what?" But I instantly and confidently said, "yes." This question wasn't weird for her to ask me because she knows me spiritually, mentally, emotionally, you name it ... and quite honestly, I didn't have to answer for her to know the answer to her own question.

But, you know what she said, "that means that God wants that for you too because what you desire is what He is planning to bless you with."

She reminded me of the verse Psalm 37:4 "Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart." To believe in Jesus is to know that he has the power to resurrect desires from our hearts into our lives and those desires keep us rooted in the Lord. I once worried that I would never find true love and that I would outgrow the ability to have my own babes, but ... I know that "for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose" (Romans 8:28). I feel this wifely and motherly desire so deeply that I know those duties and their role will be used to fulfill His purpose for my life. How could I not want that?

I've been lead lately to see myself through the eyes of my Maker ("fearfully and wonderfully made" Psalm 139:14) and to see myself as the wife and mother He plans for me to be. I don't have any "prospects" (ha!) and I'm not really planning on being a mom right now but, something tells me, He's preparing me for something big. So, I've been listening as intently as ever.

If you want to know how I'll love you, my husband ... the man that God knows I desire to be with, I'll show you mostly through how God loves me; but just in case you wanted to know how else I'll love you, let me count the ways:

I'll show you grace in moments of frustration.

I'll talk to you when I really want to run and hide.

I won't judge you when you make a mistake.

I'll always find the good in you.

I won't run when things get really, really hard.

I'll show you "I love you" every day even if I don't say it.

I'll pray with you and for you.

I'll dream for you but I'll also keep you grounded.

I'll be patient with you ... even though I struggle with patience with myself.

I'll respect you as my husband, as the father to our children, and as my best and truest friend.

I'll laugh with you and at your silly jokes.

I'll cry with you when we experience the hardest times of our lives together.

I'll always only have eyes for you. You are the one that I'll always want.

I'll be a kid when you want to have fun and I'll be your trusted partner in every endeavor.

I'll be your checkers partner and the one you ask for help with finding a four letter word for "an intense feeling of deep affection."

I'll pursue the Lord diligently with you.

I'll challenge you to love God more than you love me.

I'll try to show you unconditional love like only our Father can really show us.

I'll live our vows out every day no matter how hard it might be sometimes.

You will always be loved by me, that I can promise you.

It won't always be easy to love me, I know that. But, if you can strive to love me the way that God loves you, then you can also expect nothing less than God's best love for you from me. I don't know who you are or what trials and tribulations will come our way. I don't know if we'll have our babes or if we'll adopt and make a family just for us. I don't know if you'll be my "type" or if you'll be someone I never would have expected to love me. I don't know a lot of things about who we will be as a married couple but I do know that our love for each other and our love for God will hold us together despite any obstacle that the enemy might try and throw our way. You will be one of the biggest blessings of my life. You already are.