Our hurt is what makes us stronger. Believe you can get through anything and I promise that you will.
I see the hurt in your eyes. I see that you haven’t slept in days. I know this is hard for you and you feel like this will never end. You ask yourself time and time again, why did this happen to you? You start to get angry wanting to make a change but you don’t know what will even help the problem at this point. You ask yourself, “Is it too late?”
Let me tell you something that you probably can’t believe at this moment in time because I know things are hard for you right now. It is hard for me to see you like this. I wish I could take your pain away every day I see you like this. But I want you to know something very important, and that is, I will never give up on you. I have seen you at your worst and I still thought you were amazing. You are a strong and beautiful person. I know you don’t see it now, but things will get easier. You need to start believing in yourself, which I know is very hard right now to do. Showing different emotions is all part of being human. Being sad is something everyone feels at some point in his or her life. But then there comes a time that you have to stop dwelling on the things you can no longer change, and do your best to move on. I always tell myself that life is too short and you really need to enjoy every single day. I am not saying that every day is going to be a great day because we all have our days and that is OK. I want to have you back. The person that was so confident and always making the best out of every situation you were faced with. This hurt will pass. You need to believe it will and be the person you are meant to be.
We don’t know why certain things happen in our lives, but all we can do is take it as a learning lesson. Sometimes certain people are not meant to be in our lives either but we can only learn and be the judge for ourselves. It is your job to make the right decision for yourself. People may tell you that you need to do something because it is in your best interest to do so, but you also need to know that it is the right thing to do. I may be young, and I may not know what I am talking about, but I do know when you finally make a decision for yourself, which is when you can start recovering and building yourself up again. This may take some time and you just need to be patient.
Hurt changes people whether people want to admit this or not. It absolutely sucks being sad. Not being able to have the energy you once did for the activities you love. No one should ever take your worth away from you and I feel like this has happened over time. The pain you are feeling is normal but I do not want it to consume your life like it has.
I promise you this, one day you will wake you up and realize you don’t care anymore. You are going to be sickened by all the days you wasted dwelling on something that was not fixable. You are going to become the confident person you once were. I know you have it in you, but it just not showing right now. I will see that happy face I once saw all the time. You will get there. I am confident this will happen. This hurt will not last forever even though it seems like it will. You will get past this because there are many people that have been in your shoes before and have felt the same way as you. But guess what? They overcame their sadness and made a change for themselves because they did not want it consuming their life any longer. You need to remember this, you did nothing wrong. Wait, let me say it again, YOU DID NOTHING WRONG! I need you to understand this so you can keep telling yourself that you did the best you could. You are a great person with a huge heart. I will always believe in you forever and always. But you need to do me a favor and believe that you can get through this because I know you can.
Our hurt and pain is what makes us stronger individuals. You will never be alone and I cannot wait to meet my old friend again. Please don’t rush, there is no rush at all. Great things take time and this may take a while. Please just remember this, when that day comes, I will be waiting at the finish line cheering you on with a huge smile saying, “You did it!”