I don't want you to love me because I'm good for you, because I say and do all the right things. Because I am everything you have been looking for.
I want to be the one you didn't see coming. The one who gets under your skin. Who makes you unsteady. Who makes you question everything you have ever believed about love. I want to be the one who makes you feel reckless and out of control; the one you are infuriatingly and inexplicably drawn to.
I don't want to be the one who tucks you into bed; I want to be the reason why you can't sleep at night.
I've waited a long time to find the person who simply adores me. The kind of person who brings our the best in me and met me want to be a better person; the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances, for the person who makes me smile like no one else ever has. I've waited for the person who wants to show me off to the world because they are so proud of me. And most of all, I have waited for the person who will make me a priority, because that's where I belong.
It is as simple as this:
I know I am not the first person that you have loved. You are not the first person I looked at with a mouthful of forevers. We have both known loss like the sharp edges of a knife. We have bot lived with lips more scare tissue than skip. Our love came unannounced in the middle of the night. Our love came when we'd given up on asking love to come. I think that has to be part of this miracle.
This is how we heal. I will kiss you like forgiveness. You will hold me like I'm hope. Our arms will bandage and we will press promises between us like flowers in a book. I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat on your skin. I will write novels to the scar on your nose. I will write a dictionary of all the words I have used trying to describe the way it feels to have finally, finally found you.
And I will not be afraid of your scars.
I know sometimes it's still hard to let you see me in all of my cracked perfection, but please know; whether it's the days I burn more brilliant than the sun or the nights I collapse into your lap my body broken into a thousand questions. I will always put you in front of me. I will always look for your well being before I find my pure happiness. But, I will always find happiness with you and that's all that matters to me.
We might not be official, but know, your presence in my life at this moment is everything I need, and for that, I am grateful you have walked into my life.