The loss of a friendship. The loss of a relationship. Two powerful changes in life but what happens when both of them happen back to back?
Heartbreak. That is what happens. I sat in my bed and cried for days trying to pull my weak heart together to accept the fact that I had lost my best friend and my boyfriend all in a week. This happened all while I was struggling with personal demons and I asked God - Why me? What am I doing wrong? Why did I have to be aggressive in losing these people to ensure that my broken heart wasn't shattered even more? Whether you believe in signs or not - I received an answer from God that brought peace to my broken heart. I hope I can bring peace to yours if you have ever lost people that you cared about more than yourself.
Every morning my father deposits seeds into a bird feeder to help nourish the birds around my house. On this particular morning when I was on my way to a doctor's appointment, I noticed one of the birds was struggling to reach the feeder. There were a couple other birds ignoring the struggling bird but there were two birds who were dropping seeds for the broken-winged bird to eat up. I'm sure the birds who were eating did not see an issue in their actions and therefore did not strive to change them. This is when I realized that God had answered my questions.
You learn to appreciate the good people in your life as soon as people who break your heart do so. It's a little crazy how the system works. If there is darkness, there is lightness and if there are birds who ignore, there are birds who care. We all deserve people who exude validation, care and support. Once the realization sinks in about what is deserved and the realization that there are people out there willing to provide that - the loss of those who denied you is important and necessary for growth.
The direct consequence of an important loss is a lesson learned. I learned that I matter and that my feelings are valid and no one has the power to invalidate them. I learned that if you open up to someone and they choose to leave - let them because they were not meant to be in your life. The ones who were meant to be in your life will stay and fight for you. I learned that I never want to be in a situation where I am not cared for and supported. I learned that my weak heart isn't so weak because it has the strength to forgive and move on. I have also learned that time does not heal all and people who help pick up your broken pieces do. Don't settle for anything else and only keep the people who would help feed you when struggling with a broken wing around.
