"I'm the type of person that will not tell you why you're stupid; I'll communicate every reason why you are." I heard this comment spoken once--I was a bystander, just scrolling through my phone listening to a strangers conversation. At the time I thought, "What a straight savage," but as time grew, the words kept echoing in my mind. What kept coming back in my mind was the phrase I'll communicate every reason why you are stupid, and this statement left a terrible taste in my mouth. Why would a person want another human to feel stupid, to feel worthless? I do get that as a human we all have the overwhelming desire to gain power, but what about when the power goes straight to your head? What about when that power is causing others pain?
So I am going to break it down for everyone real quick: PEOPLE HAVE FEELINGS. No one ever feels the same as another person; no one deals with a situation the same way; no one is an exact duplicate. Even twins, although they look alike, have separate traits and personalities. In life, it should be this--everyone is understanding of the others feelings, but it is not. Truthfully, life is like war, and war is hell. A person will battle till the end of time to get what they believe they want. Some people even go to lengths where they will tear and pummel people. They cause the victims to go to extremes--where the only solace they find is in self-harm; and sometimes, if it's getting to tough for them to handle, they will turn to end their lives and ending the pain they feel is permanent. Let's be real: is being the all powerful person worth losing another person's life, another person's dreams?
Growing up, I thought that everything would be okay, that at some point you would find a rainbow at the end of the thunderstorm. 22 years, and I am telling that five-year-old version of myself that the thunderstorms are only the beginning. I had a big, distorted vision that when I was grown, everyone was kind, everything was easy and came easy, and you will always find blue skies somewhere out there. Truth: Sometimes you do not find those blue skies right away. Sometimes, you have to go through storms upon storms. You have to deal with people saying you are stupid and worthless. You will find bosses, strangers, and sometimes even loved ones that will tear you straight down to the core but then one day, the sun will bust from the gray clouds. A friend once said that, "Although the sun may not always shine, storms don't last forever." Even though friend may not think I listened to what they said, it's a phrase that stuck in my mind and sings whenever I am having a rough day. This article is even dedicated to that person because that one simple phrase has kept me from really harming myself, and for that I thank them forever.
If someone fucks with your feelings, pray, meditate, and believe that there is a better outcome. I promise you, that no matter what, you will make it through. You are one of a kind, and no one deserves to take the warrior inside of you. No one deserves to be the reason you hurt yourself, or took your life away. You have a purpose, a voice, a future. I'm here for you. No matter who you are, I am here. Don't let any negativity take the warrior from within you.