This is what it’s like to be the "Good Girl," and trust me, it is not as easy as it sounds.

Yeah, it sounds pretty easy. Do your homework, don't go to parties and rage. Don't hook up with a lot of people, so on and so on. And I am in no way hating on people who actually have lives unlike myself. You want to go party every weekend, get drunk and high? Be my guest. That's just not my ... thing.

And in high school, it really is hard being the girl who doesn't party sometimes.

But I wasn't the normal good girl that got As and Bs, and had a 3.8 GPA. I didn't have my colleges planned out, and my profession picked up. I was the type of girl that longed for the parties, and hanging with friends all the time. Longed for midnight adventures, and fun dates. I wanted to be in the same crowd as my friends. Yet, instead I sat in my room, did my work (for the most part), talked to my boyfriend, binge watched TV, procrastinated cleaning my room, and ate my weight in snacks.

There even came a point in my life where people wouldn't invite me to do anything because they knew the answer would be no, or that an hour beforehand I would text them and say "sorry something came up." And I am regretful that I did that.

I never did the party scene, so everyone in my friend group called me the "Good Girl." The "Innocent" one. But when it actually comes down to it, I know that even if I had the chance to do those things, I wouldn't. Why? Because I've seen what some things can do to people. I've seen the party life take over others education. I’ve seen good people get in trouble for being around stuff even if it wasn’t theirs. Like I said, I am not saying anything bad about the people that party, or drink, or smoke. I mean, I’ve drank before, and it was fun, until I gave myself carpet burn from falling off the couch. It can be fun, but sometimes it can ruin futures. And that’s why I don’t go out of the way to go to parties. Yet, sometimes I wish I didn’t care about all that stuff. I wish I could stay out till 3 a.m. or 4 a.m. but I would worry that my mother is worrying about me.

All I’m saying Is even though being a “Good Girl” seems so easy, sometimes it’s hard on us. We see you guys having the time of your lives, and we are envious. At least I am.

But, if you are a goody two shoes, then listen. Don’t wait till your senior year of high school to go to your first party like me. And if you do go to one beforehand, BE CAREFUL. There are some wonderful people out there, but there are also bad people. Stay with your friends, take pictures, go on adventures. Do your homework, and don’t ever think being a goody two shoes is a bad thing, but also GO HAVE A LIFE.

Sincerely,

The college freshmen with high school regrets