"Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know" - Frozen
This line in a disney spoke to me more than I realized at the time. For the longest time I was worried about my appearance to others and would refuse to get help whether it be for homework, illnesses, or just needing to get stuff off my chest. I know it may seem like what you're facing is a dumb reason to be upset, but I guarantee someone else has been through the same things and can help.
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As I was growing up, I would hide broken fingers, my feelings, tears, and worries from everyone, even my parents. As I started college, I figured I would be fine. However, I've faced more challenges than I would have thought possible, and I tried to keep it inside of me. This is not healthy.
As time progressed, I learned that people want to help. Everyone goes through shit they aren't proud of, believe me, but we also learn and are willing to help others in the same position. It is okay to ask for help.
When I was in high school, I came to the realization what being adopted actually meant, and I was completely devastated. I hid my feelings, became moody, and avoided my friends. Finally, I snapped and my mom was there to help. The one thing she said was "I am here to help you; you need to come to me about things." At first I brushed this off, but I know realize how relevant to statement is. People are willing to pick you up, explain things, or just be a shoulder to cry on.
So, whatever your struggle, your worries, your fears, find someone to talk to, to help you. It will change everything.
I know finding help can be scary, very scary, but it is not impossible. Whether it is a friend, a parent, a teacher, or a therapist, find someone you can trust and talk things through. You will feel so much better in the end.
