Living with mental health issues is clearly a struggle. Especially with what I call the trifecta of disaster of mental health (not that other mental health issues are inadequate, this is just my opinion). Trying to function within today's society is so overwhelming because there are so many social "requirements", educational obligations and with a distorted mind it makes the daily struggle to get out of bed or talk to someone that you consider one of your closest friends even harder. ( if you are struggling please seek help! You are important!)
From the mindset of depression, nothing I could ever do would be good enough. No matter how hard I push myself, the perfectionist of my soul always says it's not worth the effort. Friendships that I cherish and am so thankful for, I can see crumbling because of me being too afraid to reach out.
Being that anxiety is depression's twin sister and is even more of a perfectionist (as she is constantly checking her Instagram likes, how she looks or how others perceive her), she only enables depression. Wanting to reach out and talk to the people that you have put so much time and energy into but constantly feeling like you can be replaced - it tears into my heart more than a hungry bear into Leonardo DiCaprio. I have always been an anxious person ever since the days of elementary school, and it will probably not end until I am no longer a functioning human.
Finally, there is the sadistic love child that comes from both depression and anxiety: an eating disorder. Having thoughts that you will never be good enough until you weigh a certain way or can fit into a certain style because when that happens you will finally be accepted, well, pardon my French, but its fucking bull shit... It's completely warped in my mind and many other people's across the world that everything is black and white. I know trying to fit in is redundant but I can't help but crave that.
Overall, in my opinion, mental health is a great cause to become more educated about. For me, I am continuing to work and develop myself to be better. Eventually, I would want to not be reliant on things like medication or having to go to a therapist, a nutritionist, a psychiatrist and lastly a General Practitioner. I crave to be "normal" - whatever normal may be.
