There have been many times I thought something that was untrue. I "thought" my first crush liked me back. I "thought" I'd never need glasses. I "thought" my friends were genuine, but I just ended up being stabbed in the back. All these times I "thought" the wrong things it was because I was deceived or my perception of a situation or person wasn't as accurate as I believed it was.
All those times I thought wrong left some sort of impact on my mind. I thought about people and life differently. But the most recent time I thought wrong definitely had the most lasting impression and I'm glad it did. It changed me for the good despite the perception of my feelings being off.
The last time I thought wrong I thought I was in love. I had never felt it before so I had no other times or moments to compare the feeling too. I struggled trying to figure out if I was truly in love or if I was just in love with the idea of love. Looking back, that was one tell tale way for me to know I wasn't. If you have to question your feelings, you're not in love. Another way I knew I wasn't happened after my ex boyfriend and I broke up. I realized what I was feeling wasn't love. It was infatuation, it was temporary happiness, and it was the idea of possibly being in love. Not love itself. And I'm glad it wasn't. That sort of "love" would've only tainted and skewed what love really is for me which I dread happening.
This pseudo love happened recently in my life and it was needed. It hurt realizing who he really was and how he hurt me, but the truth hurts. I don't know about you, but I'd rather be slapped with the truth than coddled with a lie. I painted his true colors on a canvas, finally, and realized I didn't like the picture. I realized it was time to move on and never look back.
In life, we will continuously have those "I thought" moments and a lot of them will hurt or not turn out how we'd like them to. In those moments, we just have to try and flip the "negative" into a positive. Trust me, it won't be easy and it may take some time (it definitely took me some time), but it'll be okay in the end. You have to always try to view life as the glass half full and not half empty because what you "thought" can sometimes be wrong but in a good way.
