As a junior in college, my college years are quickly dwindling down. When I meet someone for the first time I get the question "So what are you going to do next?" And the truth is every time I get that you send chills down my spine. I HAVE NO IDEA! College has went by so fast, and as cliche as it sounds it feels like just yesterday I was moving in to my freshman dorm unaware of what the next four years of my life hold. I know that I should start planning what I am going to do once I graduate, but everytime I plan on it I just end of completely freaking out.

The future scares me in every aspect, because I am not ready to move into adult life. One of my favorite things about being in college is it's basically a trial run for adult life. What I mean is that I am on my own, I have to make my own choices, but I still have the support (mostly financhially) from my parents. It is like I am an adult, but not fully yet. College has become comfortable, and I am in no way ready to move on from it.

As far as what I want to do with the rest of my life I genuinely have no idea. I have chosen a major where I am not guaranteed a job right after college, or even a major where you know exactly what I am going to be doing after I graduate. There are so many different things I can do with my major, which for a girl who struggles so much with making decisions it sends me spiraling into anxiety when I think about it. The thought of applying for graduate school is scary, and that just introduces a whole bunch of other questions that need answers. Another thing that completely freaks me out is yes while I know that getting a job doesn't mean I am stuck doing it forever, but for some reason it feels like once I choose it will be set in stone and I am stuck.

So as a college student who is on the verge of a nervous breakdown please stop asking what I am going to do once college ends!