There was a time I wish I had never been born.

To never have known what your love felt like.

There was a time in which I blamed myself for all the things you put me through.

For it to have been my fault for my imperfections, my stupidity.

But I did not deserve all the pain you put me through you are not worthy to be loved by me.

You should not get to be a part of my life.

I am tired of making excuses.

You're not going to change.

I'm tired of letting myself be fooled.

You're just going to hurt me again.

I am no longer going to punish myself when you get angry with me, for your anger is misplaced.

You can keep trying to put me down, but you'll never see my face again.

I drive myself back up through hell, I remain broken but I survived.

I was strong even though I was at my weakest.

No one knew. No one knew the suffering I endured each and every day at your hands.

No one knew of the horrors that plagued my sleep.

No one knew of my desperate prayers that no one, not even your supposed God would answer.

No one came for me I am alone.

Alone. Alone meaning you have no power over me.

Alone I should put myself back together.

Alone I shall escape your oppression.

Behold riddled with anxiety, depression, and emotionally numb; yet still able to survive and prevail.

Watch me become something.

Watch because it is because of you.