Sometimes, being in college is tough. Whether it's the onslaught of assignments, stress of a roommate or looming exams, there's always something making your life just a bit overwhelming. The thought of summer kept up going, pushing us through finishing finals and packing up our entire life into boxes and bags. But now that I'm home, I'm counting down the days until I get back to campus.
Being ecstatic to go home.
While taking finals, I was beyond excited to go home. The thought of sleeping late, snuggling my dog and getting a break from the people I had spent every day with the past nine months sounded glorious. Magical, even. I could eat food not from the cafeteria and I wouldn't even have to leave my room. And the thought of showering without wearing shower shoes was almost too much for me to handle.
The goodbyes.
I wasn't ready to leave the place I called home for so many months. I sobbed saying goodbye to my best friends, knowing that it would be months before I saw most of them again. I didn't want to leave my room, knowing that it will always hold so many memories from freshman year that defined my first year at college.
The first few hours.
I was finally home! My dog immediately rolled over to have her belly rubbed, my room was just as I had left it and my family was whole again. Everything was perfect.
A little later that day.
Well, my dog doesn't care that I'm home anymore, my family is loud and I'm being judged for watching excessive amounts of Netflix. My friends no longer live just feet away and I'm missing school a little more with each passing minute.
The first few days home.
I'm trying to get back into the swing of things, but it's hard to jump right back into the life I lived before college. Trying to catch up with high school friends is hard because I'm still so in denial about not being at college anymore, and all I really want to do is be with my friends from school.
About a week later.
I've accepted the fact that I'm home for the next three months and even though I miss my friends from school, we're already planning when we'll see each other next. Either way, using FaceTime for hours is the next best thing to actually being together.
So for now, I just have to enjoy these next few months and savor the summer, knowing that when it's time to go back to school, I'm going to be wishing for a few more days of snuggling my dog, sleeping late and being with my family.
