Maybe no one cares at all, maybe your ex is waist deep in someone else’s soul right now and maybe their eyes don’t search for yours in a crowded room anymore and my heart is screaming in spite of it all

That doesn’t mean it doesn’t mean anything

It meant the world to me but it’s time to let it go

Because I’m tired of always being the one who loves wholeheartedly while the other only gives pieces of themselves

Just enough to keep me coming back for more, hoping one day to look down and see your whole heart in my hands

But I’ll never know what that’s like

I can feel our eternity unfolding in an alternate universe where you loved me the same

But I am stuck in this reality

The one where I have to watch you lose interest while I grow more and more desperate to keep you

I ended up leaving, half because I was scared you were going to leave me, and half because it was a last ditch effort to make you realize what you lost

All you realized is that you don’t need me

I’ve been sinking so long, I don’t know what solid ground feels like

I wasn’t in love until I was and it was too late

I just want to be able to sleep without waking up at 4 am with my heart aching and my throat constricting

The words you told me spinning around my head, wrapping around my brain and making it gasp for space

Well, it’s been a month, and

Now I can’t even picture how your fingers ever intertwined with mine

It still hurts to be replaced, but it’s no longer a burning flame, rather a dull ache

My brain doesn’t scream your name every day anymore

it’s no longer our song anymore

It’s just a song

And you’re just a person who didn’t respect me

Maybe the saddest thing is the forgetting, because you once meant everything to me

But now you’re just a drop in my endless ocean

Your scars made me who I am today, but I no longer dwell on your face

It doesn’t matter anymore how it happened, but it did, and it has been left in the past where it belongs

You will never get to be a part of my universe again, and I’m proud to say I made it

It gets better, every day I forget you a little bit more

It’s not a fairytale ending, but it will do

It means that I’m able to see my future without you

My heart will go on,