You were so young. Nobody was expecting it. But you somehow knew. God told you. He had to. You would say things that led to it but nobody thought about it until it happened. You left us clues. You knew.

I'm in complete awe that you are gone. I know you are happy and free of any pain that this world gave you. I know you are in a better place, but that doesn't help. I went to call you today, and then I realized you wouldn't answer. Reality is finally setting in.

I'm not sure who to call when nobody has time to sit and talk to me like you did. I'm not sure what to do when I realize you're no longer there to be my logical voice. I'm not sure what I'm going to do when your seat is always empty come time for holiday meals.

I feel like I'm living in a nightmare, but it's reality. My best friend is gone.

Our memories will last a lifetime. I will tell many stories about you. You're still here with me. I feel you. I know you're listening. I know you're watching my every move. I know you're fussing at me for crying, but it's something I can't control.

I miss you. I miss your smell. I miss your voice. I miss everything. My life has changed so much, and I can't even tell you about it. I can't ask for your advice. I can't turn to you for help. I want you back.

I know it sounds selfish, but I'm so lost without you. I'm so glad I had the time with you that I did, but it wasn't enough. I need more. I think about you constantly. You haven't left my mind. Where is my guide?

You didn't leave me a roadmap of advice. You didn't give me notice. How was I supposed to know that day we spent together would be our last? I had so many things planned for us to do. I had so many things you were supposed to be there for. But you're gone.

I know you couldn't help it. I know you're going to be there in spirit. I just want to make you proud. I want to be everything you've ever hoped for me to be. I want to make sure you're smiling down on me with nothing but pride. I know you'll always be proud of me, but it would be better if you were here to tell me.

You have a front seat view of my life now. You can see everything. I know you're watching because I feel you. I hear you guiding me. I know you're laughing at me. I know you're always beside me.

You're forever my hero. You're forever my guardian. You are the angel that is looking out for me. You will always be invincible. I will always love you.