To The One That Never Had Me,

I loved you. I loved you more than anyone probably would ever love you. You were my everything for the longest time. I was always there yet you never seemed to notice, or think of me more than a friend. I was the one who cared the most about you. I cared about you even when you stopped caring for me. Foolish me right? When I finally got over the fact that you could not care for me like I wanted you to, I left. Oh boy I left and I never looked back. Knowing I was too weak to know you and not just be completely in love with you and fearing that I would just go back to my old ways, I ran from you as fast as I possibly could. I temporarily found someone who could give me what I wanted so badly from you. The constant love, the constant compassion and the constant desire to be with me. It was at that time you realized. You saw me happy with someone else. I hope it hurt you inside. I hope you told your friends about how horribly you messed up. I hope you saw me with the person who lit up my life and wished it was you. Instead of being happy for me, you told me your feelings for me and I wish you never did. It wasn't fair to me. Having the person I loved the most, wanted to most, tell me he wanted me after I learned to get over him and live happily without him. It should have been like a dream but instead it was a nightmare. I was with someone I love and you were someone I loved. It killed me. But, I am not longer bitter about it because you taught me that if I want someone and they do not show desire to be with me until I am with someone else; I was never meant to be with them. Thank you for the friendship we shared and thank you for teaching me one of the most valuable lessons I will need in my life.

Sincerely,

The One You Should Have Loved