I'm scared
The summer.
He's going to be 3 hours away.
What if it doesn't work.
I don't want to be home.
I want to be with him.
I like living with him.
Why can't I just live with him?
I have no friends at home.
They're all so far away.
He doesn't want me to live with him…
I'm too loud and obnoxious and moody.
Idk if my parents would let me if he asked.
If he ever asked
I want to stay in Greenville.
I like it there.
It's so pretty. College is so pretty.
I want to stay the summer and take classes.
It would be easier.
I don't want to leave.
I want to stay at and take classes. I don't want to leave Preston either.
I don't know how to talk to my parents about it.
He's probably going to get tired of me soon.
He's so nice.
My mood swings have been getting worse, I can tell…. I hate it.
I'm such a terrible girlfriend.
He buys me cute little presents.
He even made me a poster.
I'm scared.
He seems so faithful and honest, at least I think so.
He tries really hard…
Sometimes I don't try bc I just feel like I'm a horrible girlfriend.
I don't know why he likes me.
And I worry so much about the future…. I love him… but I don't know how much longer he wants to be with me.
It would be nice if he was the one and we stayed together.
Or maybe he'll find someone better.
Someone without mood problems or mental health problems.
Someone who doesn't want to live with him.
Someone that doesn't bother him all the time.
I hate feelings.
God, why can't I stop crying?
It 's been almost a year and I'm worried about stuff and thinking about stuff that I shouldn't.
Why do I do this?
Why do I keep thinking like this?
Why do I think so intensely?
What is wrong with me.
Why can't I stop thinking?