I've noticed that I've been different lately. I've been more in tune with myself, but also the farthest away from myself that I've ever been. I think it's because I'm changing. I'm shaping into this person that I don't recognize. Someone without a broken heart. Someone who has scars, but doesn't even remember where they came from. Someone who loves herself. This person is slowly emerging, and I'm not scared for her to take over.

It's only one month into the new year, and for the first time, I didn't make a stupid resolution. I didn't want to try to make myself do something that I didn't want to do, and then get upset when I couldn't stick with it. For the first time in my 21 years of life, I just wanted to go with the flow. I wanted to be proud of whatever was to come, even the failures, whether they were big or small.

This is a new chapter, and I feel like I'm standing at a bus stop with my bags, watching my old self drive away forever. I can't say that I'll miss her too much. She was sensitive, selfish, dishonest with herself, hurtful, toxic, and so confused. She is a complete stranger now. She is no longer a part of me, and I guess I just want to say goodbye. I know other people won't forget her, and I probably won't either, but I wish we could. I wish I could forget about all the pain, the hurt, the sadness, the tears, and the trials because all I can see now is happiness, sunshine, growth, warmth, and success. It's time for someone new me to shine, and she is front and center. This is a rebirth, and I've never been more prepared in my life.