No one really knows how hard it's been for me, to be with out you. I guess It's because I'm really good at covering it up, but you always saw right through me.

I know the last time we talked, it was nothing but screaming and accusations. I know words we're exchanged and we were both hurt in the process, and I also know that when you hung up, that was the last time I'd ever hear your voice, and that is what cuts me to the core; knowing that you willingly walked away.

I am a hopeless romantic, I believe in love, I believe in love so much to the point where I believe it is the closest thing we humans have to magic. I know that God has made one person for each of us, I know he hand places people into our lives that challenge us and make us whole, and I know that with every fiber of my being; that you are my person.

To the man who walked away; I know we weren't perfect. The fighting at times seemed endless, we'd argue over small things, big things, we fought because maybe we cared to much. Fighting with you broke me in ways I can't even explain, because who wants to fight with the man they love? I know that I pushed your buttons; my actions at times weren't just, however; neither were yours. I suppose we cared way to much about each other that at times we would push each other away.

Lets face it, we were fire and gasoline. We weren't a typical fairy tale to the standards of fairy tales. But through all that, you were always my happily ever after. The way we loved each other and loved each other hard will forever be unmatched. You taught me to love myself. You taught me to chase my dreams and chase them hard, with out any regret or what other people said.

You supported me, whenever I did something stupid, or whenever I hated myself; you never let me down. You were my number one fan, my support system, my manly cheerleader; you were it.

I know why you walked away, and I don't blame you. I am very hard to love. I could list the reasons; but you know them all. You know where I failed, and where I made mistakes. You tried to right my wrongs, but after a while I know they became to heavy for you to bear all on your own. If I were you; I would've walked away too, but I need you to remember something; I could never walk away from you.

It's been months since I've heard your voice, or since we talked. Our last conversation was heart wrenching to say the least, and I knew I lost you when I heard the silence on the other end. But what I do wonder is if you believe it too, that God places specific people on this world for specific people, and I wonder if you believe that I am your person too.

The love we had, couldn't be erased, and as much as I try to forget it, and make you fade to my distant memory, I get flashbacks, I got chills, and just like that, I fall in love all over again, with out even a simple word from you. I wish I could rewind time and pause it. Pause it where we made sense, when we were together, wrapped up in a blanket, and just laughing while losing track of time. But sadly, I know the world doesn't work like that, and sadly I know you don't work like that.

I know we made mistakes, I know we both fell so in love we were blind to everything else. Falling in love with you was the easiest thing I have ever done, it was natural. We had plans, plans for our future, plans that couples didn't just say to be all cute, but plans we meant and wanted to carry through with, plans that made us so excited for the future, plans that made us both feel like we could really love each other for the rest of our lives.

I know you walked away, but if you get tired of walking, or if you want to come back home, just know I will be here, waiting. Because some things are worth waiting for.