This one goes out to my friends who seems to be caught in the middle of a tug-of-war battle in their brains.

The ones whose idea of a fun night is being at a party yet sitting on the couch keeping to themselves and their closest friends.

The ones who value their social life heavily, yet find nothing wrong with sitting in on the weekends.

The ones who may have trouble with some friendships because their mood switches from happy-go-lucky to isolated in seconds – even if they can’t control it.

It’s the ones who you’ll find in a library or bookstore and coffee shop just as easy as you’d find them at a tailgate or concert.

The ones who basically live the best of both worlds every day of their lives.

It might be hard to understand from an outside perspective, but those who know the feeling appreciate the way they can get loose one second and be serious (yet peaceful) the next.

It might be an annoyance to people who aren't the same way because they never know what they're going to get, but it's what makes us who we are.

To be honest, we don't understand it fully ourselves. And not being able to control it is hard on us during some moments.

Sometimes it comes across as if we're pushing people away, even if we're just in one of our moods. It causes strains on some relationships that we wish it wouldn't, but we don't know how to change it about ourselves.

So we don't.

It’s paradoxical, but there’s no way we’d rather have it.