The feeling of warm coffee flowing through your body when you feel restless; think about it. Can you feel it?
You’re sitting at your favorite coffee shop and you see who you’re waiting for through the front window. They’re smiling and you realize it’s because they see you too.
The feeling of warm, easy, meaningful conversation coming from someone who grasps your attention tighter than you’re grasping the coffee mug between your fingers; now, think about that, can you picture it?
It’s strange that those two feelings are so similar. The way your body warms from head to toe so quickly, and the way you feel like you need more in its absence because it has a way of fixing things.
Imagine being given a love letter and feeling the words so deep that you confused the feeling of it with that warm coffee going through your body and you’re looking for your mug; then you realize you never even made coffee.
Every morning you brew coffee, the smell of the mixture of espresso and caramel used to remind you of the hard day ahead but now it is replaced with the attributes of that person.
You’re grasping your favorite mug tightly and you aren’t thinking about burning your hands, all you can think about is how perfectly your hands might fit with theirs.
Until now you’ve always questioned someone’s interest for you. You can’t see the intimacy in someone’s eyes through a text received at two in the morning; it’s not there. You can’t feel someone’s appreciation when they swipe right for you on Tinder; it’s not the same. You say you know someone because their social media is in your recently viewed and they are your best friend on Snapchat. Do you really know them, though?
Your orange sweater is the topic of conversation because it brings out your eyes and makes them so hard to not get lost in. They’ve learned your favorite coffee and they go out of their way to never forget it. A slow song comes on and you mention how you love the band, and now they’re asking your favorite song.
Their interest in knowing the little things amazes you because you’ve confused a late night, “You awake?” text for care and you had no idea how much more there is to actually feeling wanted.
Now you’re not sure why coffee dates are depleting and being replaced with random touch and random lust on late nights when we feel alone. It’s so sad to see such a great thing go.
When you’re alone now you go to the kitchen and brew your coffee and let the smell remind you of who you miss, and while you’re drinking it, you are relieved from the craving of that warm, tingly feeling.
