My family was never that big. Whenever I was in high school and we would go around the classroom talking about holiday traditions and plans we had over break, I never had any. My parents were never into celebrating the holidays, and it took a toll on me; Christmas became a time where my depression would peak for the year, rather than making me happy. December-January were always the hardest months for us financially, and it always showed. Just keeping food on the table was hard, let alone buying each other gifts and having a big meal on the 25th.
A lot of others struggle with this, as well. Whether it be financially stressful or emotionally, the holidays aren't an enjoyable time for some.
As I became older, I has amazing people who made the holidays a lot better for me. They invited me over to their houses, and made me a part of their family. I am especially thankful for this, because I felt a part of the holiday, just like everyone else.
The holidays are tough, but you are tougher. Surround yourself with good people who understand your struggle, and will make everything a lot better. It's okay not to have traditions like everyone else; you can make your own. Set your own precedents. Ensure that your family will have the holiday you always wanted.
If you're feeling lonely, a great way to help others is to help at a local soup kitchen on Christmas or Christmas Eve. Many people will not only appreciate your help, but your company as well. Volunteering is a great way to celebrate, and make a difference too.
Waking up on Christmas to an empty house hurts. It's painful; I know this. However, you have so many opportunities to make your holiday worth it. Even if it's watching Christmas movies by yourself with hot chocolate, you can always turn a bad situation into something worthwhile.