There is a saying, you can take the girl out of the city, but you can't take the city out of the girl. I completely believe that to be true. I see a lot of traits from both New York and Ohio in me, which is completely contradictory, since one is a huge city, and the other is more country/suburban. I Love shopping and the hustle and bustle of the city, but I love my Ohio food, and the outdoor lifestyle. I was given the wonderful opportunity, of going back to the town I was raised in. I realized that a lot has changed. Not with the town, but with me. I wasn't the same girl that I was in high school, neither were some of the friends that I went to high school with. It was weird even the small stuff like the way I used to eat differed. Every time I go back home I have to eat at the places I used to especially since there only in Ohio, like Roosters, Shades, Genji Go, and Steak and Shake. SO I did and my body wasn't use to me eating like that anymore. Bummer :( .
I was able to hang out with some of the friends that I kept in contact with from High School. In that alone I saw how some changed for the worst, and others for the best. I just couldn't believe it, and then I stepped back for a minute and realized, wait a minute I've changed to. I used to be this hot head, who was emotionally broken, insecure, and not sure of anything.
All I wanted to do was turn up, go out, and make money. I am so happy that I'm not that girl anymore. I've tore down a majority of the walls that were built to protect myself, I am confident with who I am as a person, and that party girl rather stay in and watch Hulu in her bed with a pair of leggings on. I am growing into the woman I envision myself being. No one can define who they think I am, only I define myself. I was heart broken when I had to move away from Ohio.
Now looking back, I never thought I would say it, but I'm happy that it happened. I was able to surround myself with positive people who encourage me. I found out more about myself, and now I know what I want to do with my life. I can grow more now, before I was more focused on what am I going to wear for the club. I couldn't be more happy, God took me out of Egypt, just like he did for Moses, and know I understand that it was for the best, and can't wait to see what else is in store for me.
