Breathe. I know.
I know it seems like all the walls that protect you and keep your life safe are crumbling to the ground. Honestly, some of them are, but you will walk out a different person. You are going to be so much stronger than you ever thought you could be. Nothing is what it's supposed to be, but honey-bunches that's called life. Life is a roller coaster of emotional breakdowns and strikeouts. I've stood exactly where you're standing. I've lived your current life. I've watched my life sink to the bottom of the ocean. I've watched everyone that I needed to stand tall and show me how to stay strong hit rock bottom. I've been there.
Now, I'm going to stand beside you and fight for you.
I'm going to stand right in front of you and fight off every demon that comes your way. You don’t have to be strong right now. You don't have to feel like you need to hold it all together. I'm here to hold it for you while you fall apart. You deserve a chance to scream and cry. I don't care if it's in my car at midnight in an empty parking lot during one of our heart to hearts or if it's while you're alone sitting on your bed. I will be there when you need me at the drop of a hat. I'm here to stand by your side and hold your hand. Once you hit rock bottom, fall to your knees and talk to God. He takes you to your breaking point to see what you do next. I failed the test. I did everything wrong. In fact, I never even hit my knees. I turned to bad company. So once you hit your rock bottom, I'm coming into the game. I will walk every single step beside you. I'm not going anywhere until everything gets better.
I don't care what time it is - I don't care how long it takes.
I will help put you back together. I have your back. I will forever have your back. Let me do this. Let me be there. Allow me to hold you together while you break in my arms. You deserve that. You held my hand and let me fall apart. I could've ran to alcohol, suicide, or self harm, but you held me. You made me feel safe. When I was taken out of my comfort zone and thrown to the wolves, you did what you knew to do. You loved me. You hadn't lived through my hell yet, and honestly I hope you never have to. This time it is different, I have lived through this. I have. I know what you're feeling. I know your fears. I know what you need.
No, I can't fix it for you.
I would if I could. You need someone to help you see your options. There is always a way out. You need to feel okay. I can tell you from experience that you are and will be okay. I can give you reassurance. I know you are scared. You can be, but know fear has nothing on you. I'm ready to fight for you. You're going to be so much stronger when you get out of the pit. Remember Judah and Joseph? Judah means praise. Praise got Joseph out of the pit. Praise your way out. While you climb up, I'll be holding the ladder for you. I've got you. We're in this together. I have one piece of advice for you…
"When everything seems like it's falling apart that's when God is putting things together - just the way He wants it." Let Him build you back up.
