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The Day I Stopped Looking Back

[taken directly from my iPhone notes]

Angel Lin Zhu
Jun 30, 2020
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June 21, 2020

Today marks the first Father's Day in 6 years that I'm happy.

I've already wasted so much on him. My energy, my trust, my love. Never again will I let him control my life. And my life begins in my mind.

Today taught me that in order to direct my life, I must first direct my thoughts. And I direct my thoughts by disciplining myself to perform tasks that enable me to believe in my goals, my dreams, myself.

Today, I exercised, learned from a new mentor, spent quality time with my sister and mom, worked on a project, went for a stroll, sang some songs, finished a book.

I may not be exploring new places, and meeting new people, but I'm rediscovering who I am, and conquering the frontier of my soul.

As I learn to harness my powers, explore untapped passions, and reach my full potential, I will continue to push my boundaries even further, because I'm certain that even I, after 19 years, have no idea what I'm capable of.

This one day was simply a microcosm of this past year. I've surfed the tides of my own emotions, floundered in the world's rip current of lies, even returned to the place I was so eager to leave, because of the open wounds it failed to heal. I am home.

Yet, the Fight in me is stronger than ever. I'm fiercely protecting, nurturing, and investing in myself so I'm well-equipped to help others do the same.

God, universe, fate, luck, fish in the sea…

Here I am. I'm ready for you.

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