If you're anything like me, you have your wedding planned out on Pinterest, all the traits of your dream guy in a list, and your life planned down to a T. I've always been one to know what I want, which has led to a very successful life so far, because I work hard for everything I want. It's also led to some struggles, feeling behind, and feeling lonely.
I've always wanted a serious relationship in college, to be married by 23, and kids by 26 or 27. After my second year of college, I'm starting to realize that everything I had planned is probably not going to happen the exact way I wanted it to. I felt so disappointed, and felt that I had done something wrong. Why didn't anyone like me? What did all my friends that were already married have that I didn't?
After a few weeks of feeling sorry for myself, I stopped and really took a minute to think. Had I truly prayed for all these things with my whole heart? Was I putting this into God's hands or was I trying to make it all happen by myself?
I was trying to do it all by myself! That's why I felt lonely. I wasn't trusting God to place me in the right places at the right time. I wasn't letting him decide what was best for me. There I was, knowing exactly what I wanted but what I wanted was all wrong.
God has a funny way of doing things. Half the time you think something is what you want, but God knows exactly what you need. If he's not blessing you in the way you expected, don't worry, take a step back, and look what he did for you instead. You'll realize it's such a better choice! God is good all the time, and all the time God is good.