I was watching a video of my favorite YouTube show with the topic being exes (in the relationship), and it took me back when I almost got caught by the case of the Ex.
I remember it like it was yesterday...I woke up from a daily nap in college to see my ex boyfriend "friend" me on Facebook last year. By that time, we haven't talked in over two years and he was literally erased from my mind in an emotional sense. I saw his name and my heart was racing, full of memories..I made the first move (you know being polite as I am), asking how he was, and what's going on. The casual, small talk we would have, I thought he had changed for the better and we could be friends.
FAST FORWARD to the months of October and November...this fool would hit the lines, so quick with the "I always loved you", "I was a fool to leave you", and "I wanna marry you one day". Of course like many, I believed him, but I had my restrictions as I didn't want to be embarrass me. What I didn't know is that he had a whole girlfriend on side and lied about it. This girl cussed me out (through his account) and when I told him about it, "She's crazy, man. I'll handle it ". I felt like he didn't and I began to question everything he did. "Why does this girl have his password?" Mmmmmm?
I was confused and iffy, but something in my spirit said, "Elandra. If something happens, know who to question". Lo and behold, dude flipped the script on me to make it seem to his "girlfriend" that I was trying to get with him and not vice versa. I got cussed out again, which I said to myself, "Self? I'm going to end this chapter in my book once and for all". I took my phone and texted an eloquent (it wasn't pretty) message to him, ending with "Have a blessed day" and that ended our chapter.
I didn't cry though, which was really strange to me because I can be very emotional about people I care about, but I realized I was really disappointed. I thought he turned into a good person, who was serious about our next chapter, but you out here lying. I realized that we give people so much expectations that we forget that they (sometimes) ain't nothing. I am in college and he was not. I'm in Arkansas for most of the year and he's still back in Chicago. Our lives and priorities became VERY different. How would have that worked? (Not knocking my people who make it work) I became so infatuated with this change that he could be a wolf in sheep's clothing, which he turned out to be. I had my anger at him before, but I forgave him at a distance. I had to. If I didn't let go of our past, the rest of sophomore would have been tragic as I was fighting for someone who didn't care about my feelings.
I learned that everyone is in your life for a reason, either a blessing or a lesson. He was a lesson that I didn't need in my life anymore. I still got love for him, but it's not as deep as when I was 16. If he pops up again, he just an acquaintance because he lost the right to be a friend.
He's mad at me though. I don't know why and I don't care, but I will continue to live my life. *puts on sunglasses* This case is closed.
Sorry Not Sorry *winks*
