There is nothing worse than finding a friend and believing they would stay in your life forever, only to have to make the decision to cut them out of your life. Once upon a time, I was a silly high school girl who believed everyone was there for her no matter what. Unfortunately I was wrong, and I had one of the biggest heartbreaks of my life. This was unlike any break up or relationship I had ever been in because it was my "best friend." But, everyone needs to remember that even your best friend can hurt you and break your heart - some people just aren't meant to be in your life forever. So this is what I want to say to the best friend that broke my heart.

I hope you're doing great.

I really mean it when I say that I hope you are doing great. You deserve a life that is free of worry and trouble, just like everyone else. You shouldn't have to have a bad life; and you shouldn't make your life miserable by letting your past demons follow you through your life. God works in amazing ways and He stands by your side even when you think you have no one; trust Him and also trust yourself. We shared some great memories; we we could laugh for hours about nothing or sit in silence and be completely comfortable. A friendship like that is hard to leave behind, but it was something I had to do. So as much as I'd love to say that I hate you, I know I can't.

I hope you know how much I cared.

I cared about you and our friendship more than I cared about a lot of things. I still think about you or worry from time to time; I'd like to call you up and ask how you're doing, but life doesn't work like that. You treated me terribly and I stood by you and was your friend, even when you didn't deserve a friend at all. Having a friend like that is something special and rare because no one deserves to be treated like I was, but only a few people can handle it. I can't tell you how much it hurt when I made the decision to stop talking to you, but I can tell you that everything was done for the better. I am a better person now because of what you put me through, I am stronger, and I hold those who are close to me extra tight now.

I hope you know what you did.

I hope by now that you recognize the ways that you pushed me away. Our friendship became very one sided; I cared and you didn't. But that's okay, I understand, you had a lot on your mind and you couldn't bear to listen to what I would tell you. I hope you know how sad you made me as well; the only thing I ever wanted was for our friendship to work but I felt helpless because you were so closed off. You didn't want to tell me how you felt, you didn't want to share anything; and in the end you didn't even want to hang out with me. I don't need anyone like that; and honestly neither do you. You wanted a friend who was there for you when you needed it, but you weren't ready to be there for anyone else in their time of need.

I hope you live life a little differently now.

I hope you can always remember how important friendship really is, and how you should never push away anyone who tries to care about you and love you. You are the only one who can control who stays in your life forever, its up to you to decide who you want to keep. I also hope that you have started treating the people in your life like you really should; with love and care and respect. Life is a big circle of karma, and if you continue to hate everyone who tries to love you, in the end there will be no one else there for you. You should also start trusting your decisions; being indecisive is only going to make you feel worse. Friendships are not off one minute and on the next, but thats what you wanted it to be like.

I hope your loved ones understand you.

You are a selfish, manipulative person who takes advantage of those who love you for your own benefit. It took me a long time to not only understand that but also accept it; I didn't want to end our friendship, I thought you would be in my life forever. But, because I gave you my all and you gave me nothing, I was left heartbroken and without a friend. Who would have thought that a friend could break your heart? I'm sure everyone in your life knows that you're like this, and I'm also sure that you know it too. I hope they can be stronger than me and love you even if you hurt them; but I also hope that you never hurt them they way you hurt me.

So many things can change in a short amount of time. I believe it's important to always keep the people who love you close. I'm so thankful for everyone thats ever been in my life; for the ones who stayed because they continue to be there and support me, and also for the ones who left because they taught me that nothing is permanent.