Here’s to the girl that broke my heart. I gave you three plus years of my life that I will never get back, and although they certainly did not end up the way I expected, I don’t think that I would take them back, even if I could. I am not writing this to point fingers or even single you out. I simply want to thank you.
I want to thank you for showing me exactly what I deserve. Now you were not all bad, in fact we had some good times together, yet when I look back, I know God has someone better for me. Someone who better fits my personality, and will take all my quirks and love them as much as she loves me. Someone who doesn’t look at me and see nothing but the things she wants to change, but she sees all the ways God has made me unique. Don’t get me wrong, I know that I was aggravating and immature at times, but I never pretended to be anything that I wasn’t.
I want to thank you for showing me that I had no idea what love was. I thought what we had was love, but the joke was on me. I think what we had was infatuation, and we both know that it led us to a dead end road. In this day and age, the words, “I love you,” are used too much, and I think we may have said it just to say it. Maybe that was my fault, but it was through our relationship that I learned that I had no idea what love was or can be in a starry-eyed kind of way. It is this reason that I am very cautious as to who I begin relationships with; I want it to be as real as real can be.
I want to thank you for pushing me into the arms of God. The end of our relationship was awful, and I thought I would never get over you. However, it was through what I thought was the darkest days and nights of my life that I found a comforter like no other. It was through the end of our relationship that I began the greatest relationship and friendship I have ever had. He has never let me down, and I know his promises for me are bigger than what I could ever dream of. He is honestly the center of my life now, and I cannot thank you enough for that!
As I sit here and type this, I am in awe of how much I have gained by losing you. We both made mistakes; there is certainly no denying that. Yet as time passes by, I see exactly why we did not work out. My future is bright, and you gave me a little boost into getting me to where I should have been all along. At that exact time of my life, you were exactly what I needed. It is for those reasons that I want to thank you. Because of you, I am the young man I am today, and I have to say I am pretty dang proud of him.