When we were younger, I always knew there was something about you that made me wonder and want more. I have looked for years to find someone who made me laugh the way you do, someone who makes me question if I can achieve more. I was raised on the right side of the tracks while you lived a totally different life than I did. But we work! We have always balanced each other out and it's no wonder that we always find our way back to each other. You have had a much different love life than I've had: you got married and then divorced, you fell for a girl who was nothing but wrong for you; and then we came back together.
People always say "if you love it, let it go. If it comes back, it's yours; if it doesn't, it wasn't meant to be. I firmly believe in timing and everything that does with it. I am the girl who puts her life on a timeline and likes things to be hit by a certain point; but the big man upstairs has other plans for me and after rediscovering this old flame; I trust him completely.
I let a boy completely destroy every ounce of me while still trying to love him with my all. I allowed myself to feel so low that I wasn't sure what to do with my life anymore and that almost killed me. I have always been someone with BIG emotions. I feel things so intense that I don't know how to express them without scaring someone like you away. I cry when I'm stressed, I scream when I'm angry, and I worry about everything that could possibly go wrong; but you already knew that. You are one of the few that completely understands what makes me tick. I overthink 150% of the time that I'll do something foolish and send you packing or say something that will scare you into thinking I'm a freak who is going too fast and just wants to find someone. I have been through hell and back trying to find a love like what we had when we were younger. I didn't think that the reason I couldn't was because our story wasn't through.
You let me grow on my own and I'll forever thank you for that. I was able to see what falling felt like and what crashing does to a person. I was able to learn how to stand on my own two feet and function as an adult; but still have the heart of a child and want nothing more than to feel butterflies in my stomach over a boy. I was able to create a life for myself that I was proud of showing to someone. When we were 15 and first dated, I was thankful that it didn't work for us then. Time knew what it was doing when we parted ways after college. We grew up, found out who we were and who we wanted to be. I am so happy to have you back in my life. I can't think of another person who feels more at home other than you. You are the best thing I never knew I needed and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life getting to know who you've grown up to be.
