I can't tell you how I'm feeling
Because I don't really know
I have all the signs of anxiety
My hands are shaking
And I'm sweating
But a smile tugs at my lips
I can't get out of here fast enough
So why is time moving so slow?
I squint on the drive home
Staring into darkness
Not thinking about anything at all
The music has no words
And the notes have no meaning
I come upstairs and I light my candles
Thinking about how mysterious you were
Even though I know your secret
You used to be that way all the time
And it would drive me crazy
But I have other things on my mind tonight
A girl who's sending me signals
A light that's constantly flashing
I'm trying to figure out if I should give up
Am I being stupid
Am I being easy
Is it time to start playing the songs
And staring at the ceiling?
Can I be sad yet
Or is that silly
I'll play my guitar
And think of you
Over these five months
Why did you waste this time on me
If I wasn't what you wanted
I get it
It's scary
I've run away before too
And now I realize
That the other side hurts
Is it dumb to say that I fell for you
From this far away
That one time we met plays in my head
You striped shirt
And the confidence that you had to wear it
I was so hung up on someone
Who would shortly pass me by
That I didn't even look at you the right way
But I guess I caught your eye
If that was event true
I miss what we could have been
What I pictured as I tried to fall asleep
Sitting on your couch
Watching a movie
When I put my arm around you
Trying to be smooth