I talk to God about you, and I haven't even met you yet.
I picture you sitting next to me every Sunday at church, and I can't help but smile. Just the thought of sharing the thing I love most with the man I love the most brings me pure joy.
We've never met, or maybe we have. Whatever the case, in my mind you're still just a clouded face, but I pray for you every day. I pray that God is molding you into a man that is so on fire for Jesus that you cause the smoke detectors to go off. I know...it's so cheesy.
I hope you're cheesy, but as long as you can make me laugh we'll be okay. God knows I love to laugh...I'm SO in awe of you. Your love for me, and my unconditional love for you. You must have an incredible heart, and a mind full of knowledge. I picture us at the dinner table talking about politics, or theology. Better yet, I picture us talking about scripture. I picture us traveling and seeing God's beauty.
I know you'll make me the happiest woman on earth. Our beautiful kids will have such an amazing daddy, but I also hope you're okay with their names because I already picked them...that's the kind of person I am. However, I'm sure you'll learn to fall in love with that.
I pray that God molds me into an amazing, compassionate, caring, loving, and godly woman. You deserve the best. Not a day goes by without me picturing our life together, but I yearn for the day when I can meet you.
I yearn for the day when we can dance at 3 A.M. in our kitchen, or the nights we can smuggle a pizza into our bed. Nonetheless, you can expect us to workout the next morning, and don't forget about grabbing coffee after.
I want to take pictures of everything. I want to appreciate every moment of our life together. Christmas morning with Adaline and Joshua jumping because Santa came. Birthdays, Easter, and anniversaries, all spent with you.
I've waited so long for that life, but I'll keep waiting some more. I know God is preparing you for me, and me for you.
But for now...
I love you.
I'll continue to talk to God about you, and I'll continue to grow in Him so that one day my heart is so on fire for Jesus that I set off smoke detectors. I know I'm broken now, but I'm working to better myself and my future in order to live happily forever with you. I cannot wait to walk down the aisle and say, "I do."
I thank God for you even now because I just know He has great plans for us. Thanks for loving me, praying for me, and being my future husband. I can't wait to love you even more than I already do.
You may be struggling in life, but just remember one day there will be so much love between us, from us, and given to us. Never stop loving, worshiping, or living, and remember even still, He is good.