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Dear Swoonie B,

In August 2018, my freshman roommate convinced me to download Tinder with her to get over her ex. I didn't have any expectations going in but one thing led to another and I had this guy over. We had been chatting for a couple of days and when he came over, we watched a few shows and spent a few hours talking and getting to know each other. We have a lot in common and share similar views. He didn't make a move, it was a very innocent encounter. We continued Snapchatting and hanging out, then had a continuous "hookup" relationship. Long story short and a bit TMI, but he was a few firsts for me.. We found a cycle of falling out of touch, then he'd get in contact with me, we'd hang out for a while, then fall out of touch again. The getting back in touch usually consisted of him saying that he still thought about me and wondered why things happened the way they did. Prior to this, he had told me that he didn't want a relationship and I told him I didn't either. Now that I look back, I lied to him, but I was too proud to admit it and wanted to have a "free" freshman year. Fast forward to Summer 2019, he got in contact with me in July after we hadn't spoken to/seen each other since April. He was checking in and making sure I was doing alright (another common reason for him being in touch). An interesting turn in events happened back in April 2019 when I ran into my almost freshman year roommate and we became very close (future roommates in Fall 2020). Turns out, she's buddies with his then-hall mates and now roommates. She's been over to their apartment multiple times and at the beginning of the Fall 2019 semester, he'd ask about me. Toward the end of that semester, he was really drunk and was asking "what's the deal with her?" He didn't go into detail but he was still confused by everything that's happened. We've been at two different group gatherings in January and February 2020 and didn't speak to each other. It's a bit awkward. I've had feelings for him for the last year, but don't know how I'd ever let him know since we run in the same circle. He's a bit stubborn (as am I) and can be hard to approach. I feel like I should move on, but there's a big part of me that wonders if there's a reason for still being in each other's lives after having this history. I wanted to be the bigger person at the next gathering, but then COVID-19 happened and we won't see each other until August 2020. This whole situation is just confusing...

Wow. A rollercoaster ride it has been for you two since August 2018, huh? I can understand why it's so hard to let go — because moving on without closure is a very difficult thing to do.