You have my heart but I'm still holding back

I feel like I've known you forever but I know nothing about you

I know you bring out a side of me that has been suffocating for years

And in the silence we create together I find peace despite my anxieties telling me everything is wrong with our situation

Your family makes me wonder if that's what a home is supposed to feel like

Yet I see how uncomfortable you are with them

But then you look at me and your smile catches my breath, your touch buckles my knees

Still, I can't read you

This relationship gives me freedom, a freedom I always wished for, but when you give an inch I take the mile

For years I dreamt of you and now I'm lost despite you holding me near

You keep yourself locked inside and I'm screaming at the door to let me in

In the silence, we connect but in speech, I never know what to say

Are we right for each other or is each other right for now?

I never know what pleases you yet each time we meet at the top

We trace each other's bodies and together we dance a midnight duet

Hands clasped together as you hit the right notes

Each time the song is slightly different yet the melody stays consistent

I hate to have to leave you and I know it's hard on you, but we used to hold each other tight at night and now we sleep with space between... tell me, is this the trust I hoped for or is this distance we are left with.

Two strangers that found comfort in each other