It's three o'clock in the morning. You're sitting on the bathroom floor, crying, trying to decide whether or not this will be it.
You're tired of living. You're in a cycle that repeats day after day, and nothing ever changes. Your depression is at an all-time high. You're tired of trying to do better, and you're tired of being told to lighten up.
I'm here to tell you, this shouldn't be the end.
You're in pain now. You may be going through a rough patch in your life. You may have had a loss in your life, whether it be from death or a simple disagreement. Maybe you're going through a hard breakup.
The pain will subside. Or perhaps it will not subside.
Sometimes the pain will never truly go away.
This is where you need to take a step back, and you need to realize you were placed here with a purpose.
You were not set on this Earth just to throw your life away. You were sent here to change the world, whether it be subtle or noticeable.
This pain was set in your life so you can rise. So you can learn from it and grow stronger.
You're probably a stranger, you probably don't even know who I am. Well, I already know that your life is well worth living.
I was suicidal from the time when I was eleven to even now. I have thoughts sometimes. It truly never goes away.
However, it does get better.
I lost my grandfather to suicide whenever I was twelve years old, and even though I so desperately wanted to die, I saw how his death affected my family.
I saw how him killing himself changed everyone's lives around me.
The thing about suicide and depression is that it's tricky. Sometimes, it's obvious in people. Sometimes, people are really good at hiding it.
My grandfather was really good. I even saw my grandfather smiling and laughing the night before he took his life.
You're not the only one in the world dealing with these thoughts, these voices in your head telling you you're better off leaving this damn world.
This world is cruel, but it's your turn to kick its ass and let it know that you won't let it stop you.
You are strong. You are worth it. You can get through this hell.
If no one believes in you, just know I do.
Don't let a temporary situation cause a permanent reaction.
IF YOU OR SOMEONE YOU KNOW ARE STRUGGLING WITH SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND/OR TENDENCIES, REACH OUT IMMEDIATELY. NO ONE SHOULD GO THROUGH THIS ALONE. SUICIDE IS SERIOUS.
National Suicide Hotline: 1 (800) 273-8255 - available 24/7
