Life. It can be a truly amazing thing filled to the brim with beautiful memories made every day. Or it can be a depressing cycle of the same monotonous actions carried out day after day. For me personally, I feel stuck in one of those cycles. I hate it wholeheartedly. The past while has been a circle of waking up, going to school, going to practice, doing homework, and going to bed far too tired to do anything else. It's exhausting and depressing to want to do the other things I enjoy but having no energy or time. I also feel like many of you out there find yourselves in same boat sometimes, or maybe all the time. Whatever cycle you're stuck in, know that you're not alone, and know that there's always a way out.
When I find myself stuck in repetition, I get depressed. I love change, that's what I need. I love trying the new and unknown, so that's what I do. For example, if I can find the time, I'll go explore a new hiking trail I've never been to and just get lost in thought. It works wonders, believe me. If I'm really stuck in an ocean of the same things over and over and am unable to pull off a new adventure, I try doing things out of order in my day-to-day schedule. Something as simple as eating breakfast before a shower versus showering before breakfast might just be enough to brighten the day with the change you so desperately crave. If that doesn't work, take a different route to work or school, listen to a new radio station or a band you don't know that well, order a coffee you've never tried before. It doesn't matter what you do, just shake it up the routine a little bit. The number one thing I always focus on when I feel like I'm just running on a hamster wheel, is that there will always be a way out and that no matter how awful I feel just living through the same days over and over, I can and will get out of it. Sometimes all it takes is the week to end. Sometimes you may need to change or cut some negativity out of your life. Other times it could be an indicator of a rough path of life that you should get off of immediately. Whatever it is, it will end, just be patient, I know you're stronger, you will overcome.
Life gets messy, that's one of the very few things in life that will always be true. Sometimes it's a roller coaster filled with adventure and fun, and other times it slips into a vicious cycle of monotony and routine. It can feel grey and empty, and it's not bad that it happens, it just does. When that does happen though, there's always a way to slip back out, and to get back to enjoying the surprises and new activities that life has to offer.
