I am stuck in this dilemma.

I am stuck in this dilemma where I'm quite not sure what to do.

You see, I don't know what to do anymore. I am stuck with this uncertainty and doubt. I'm lost in my own thoughts. They say that it's unhealthy to overthink, but it's normal. It's normal to overthink — overthink to this the point where you keep yourself up at night and kill yourself with these thoughts.

I'll admit — I have neglected myself.

I've neglected my well being. No, I'm not talking about my physical health. I'm talking about my mental health. I'm slowly killing myself from within. I'm sick in the head. I'm distressed by my own self. How sad is that?

Do I need help? Yes. Do I want help? No.

I'm perfectly fine the way I am. I'm normal, I'm perfectly fine just like the next person. I might be messed up in the head, but who isn't?

So, I am stuck in this dilemma and I don't know what to do. I'm a mess with these sick ideas and thoughts of how to escape from myself. I want to ignore it and push through it, but I can't.

Maybe I should just end it.