There are so many label pools we have been forced to dive in within our teenage years on this earth, but have you ever heard of being two at the same time?
I have been known as an extrovert as long as I can remember. I would say I am your typical people person, or at least I can be described as one. I say hello to people when I pass by. I get along with most everyone even if a person and I do not agree on much. I hang out with all different types of people and never stick to just one group. I love being the life of a party and dancing to any beat that comes on while out with my friends. I'm not afraid to talk to the opposite sex and have no problem saying what I truly feel. I love confrontation and being blunt with others instead of being passive. All these traits lead to the typical extrovert, right? Wrong.
Along with these traits come an underlying swamp of other traits that would put myself into the pool of the upmost shy girl. Talking in class or in some form of public speaking, even in front of peers I've known my whole life, is extremely terrifying. The mere thought of walking across campus alone makes my hands shake. I hate calling people, especially for appointments and other adult responsibilities. If I don't have my friends by my side, I'm the most quiet creature on this earth.
Most people out there probably have traits of both pools, but only a "true ambivert" will know the struggles of being painfully shy while being the life of the party at the same time. That's what is hard to understand for those who tend to stick to just one side. Extroverts have no problem having all the attention on themselves, so why does it make me so uncomfortable at the same time? Why does it bother me to speak in front of a classroom full of others I know, but can somehow be okay with being the center of attention when it's a room full of the same peers during a upbeat discussion?
It has never really made sense to those who aren't, but if you are a true ambivert, you will understand. It's something that can be such a blessing, but also such a curse. If I was asked which side I would declare myself on if I was forced to choose, I honestly could not pick a side. Have you ever been a people person that literally hates interacting with people sometimes? No, that's not to say I hate people....well not most people. I just know that there is not as much of a complex personality set out there as this one. So whether you're the life of the party one day and the girl hiding from the world with a good book the next, if you're an ambivert, you'll understand.
