Some Monday thoughts…

I’m like a clay sculpture. I can be easily molded into whatever you want me to be and I’m sick of that BS. I’m sick of all the distractions. I am constantly trying to live for others and live up to others standards and at the end of the day, I always end up letting myself down. When it comes to almost anything, the people I hang out with, what clothes to put on in the morning, study spots, or boys— especially boys, I think too much and try too hard. I have tendencies to let notions of what others might think of me or want me to be get in the way of doing what I actually want to. I have always struggled with this and it has gotten better, but recently I have let myself fall back into that sculpture like state. I know I can’t be the only one who feels this way sometimes. So, to the friends that know me for me, if you see me acting weird around a cute boy, slap me in the face. To future friends and followers, I challenge you to start living for you and to do what you want. Start living organically for yourself and stop trying to make things happen. In my 20 years of life, I've found that the things you want so desperately to happen, happen when you stop looking. Once you switch your mind set, everything else will fall into place. BE YOUR FREAKING SELF. And stop trying so hard. ALWAYS.