You grew up in a home that modeled exactly what a loving relationship is. You've been around unconditional love and trust your whole life. You know what it should and shouldn't be. I know you've been given a forgiving heart and I know you want so desperately to be able to love someone unconditionally but there should be conditions to your love. Not everyone's deserves your heart.
Stop settling. Being cheated on isn't normal. It's not a part of the ups and downs of relationships.
Stop settling. Being abused isn't normal. There's nothing you could say or do that justifies that behavior. Stop blaming yourself.
Stop settling. He shouldn't make you cry more than he makes you happy.
Stop settling. Breaking up and making up over and over again isn't normal. Let him go.
You are told all the time how beautiful, and kind, and strong you are. Your worth was instilled in you when you were a little girl. Don't sacrifice that. Start being the girl who walks away and doesn't look back. You owe that to yourself.
You know who you are. You know what you deserve and you know what you want.
One day things will work out for you. You'll find someone who walks into your life with the intention to love you and take care of you. One day you won't be the only one pouring your heart and soul into the other. You'll find someone you can actually trust. Things will be easy. Then, you'll be glad you didn't settle.
I've Been Single My Whole Life & That's OK